Blog Forecast, Allegories, Confessions

Well, I had a dark speel.
Yep. It's through now. The clouds have cleared and I expect a normal range of weather from here on out. Sun, partly cloudy skies, cold, warm...you name it. I'm sinking back into normal patterns.

Why the dark speel? Extreme imbalance. Too much rationalizing, analyzing, and obsessing over all of my thoughts. I became conceited in my "knowledge". One of my journals was named "tortured genius wannabe" and rightfully so. I can be intellectual but to become completely detatched is not me. And hopefully not anyone, but Mersault.

Eye Allgeory:

You have two eyes. One is the eye of the heart, emotion, intuition, and gut feelings. Probably labelled feminine or maybe "yin". There is also the eye of logic and reason. Sometimes when approaching a problem, we try to approach the problem half-blind, covering one eye with a pirate's patch. But this is unhealthy. You cannot fully see with just one eye. I have tried and I've come to realize that it does not and will not work. Seeing out of one eye gives you an obstructed and incomplete viewpoint. Don't abandon your emotions. They are here for balancing purposes. Don't get lost in folly! Reason will help to add meaning to your emotions.


Also, separate from the eye allegory...don't get too obsessed with thinking and rationlizing. Not only is it depressing, but it doesn't actually teach you much. Some things can only be learned through experience. Tough.

Wishing all of the readers peace and love (not happiness, it's so transient!), or as Tallent would say, "warm and fuzzies".

Trying to get all of this out in a healthy way/without getting in too deep. Thanks for reading and do come back.

This Post Isn't About the New Year

So I was talking to my sister right before this space show at the museum of Natural History started, and I thought:

Wouldn't it be sort of cool if they had acid trip virtual reality goggles? You could see total craziness but not have to actually get high?

We concluded that probably wouldn't sell as well as the actual drugs, considering you wouldn't experience the same magical high, due to biochemical reactions in your brain. It would just be a superficial simulation.

Musings: How to define and/or compare and contrast belief vs. knowledge? It's quite difficult actually. You could say that knowledge is always rooted in empirical or factual evidence, and that belief isn't, but in some ways, they seem to overlap.

Isn't it odd how we can know things about people, but not know them? There is a friend of mine that I have reached this level with. She is quite affectionate and showy. It makes me uncomfortable, because although we've had deep and intellectual conversations, I only feel like I know a surface level of her. I know things about her, but I don't know her. Maybe her hugs and showiness is her attempt to open up, but it isn't the same as a real connection.

It's not good enough for me, and if she thinks she can buy me off with some splenda-sugar affection, she should rethink her approach.